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this.. feeling uncommon not normal
what could it be
hoping for the best knowing the worst is life changing
curious..... madness raging
what if it is what it could be
crazy world heated thoughts only 2 choices
pay attention to what i want not to the voices
what could it be
pondering on what if............................................................................................................................................................................

O_o

Seriously? H.H.S is definitely on a roll this summer. I guess dickhead is tightt lol cuz i no longer want him in my life. Later on yesterday night i went on da nigga's space and seen their conversation. . . . . That is not a way to get me mad. If anything Im not gonna be mad at you NIGGA, im taking it all out on my sister. Basically the convo went like this. He asked wat she was doin n shit. He wanted to go get her.. she said "WAT U WANNA DO". Are you serious you nasty shit? What do you mean "what you wanna do". Are you nutts?! Then she had the nerve to ask him if he was at MY house. Silly bitch. Then when I messaged her about it, she fronted like she didnt know what was going on!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then this morning i woke up to find that she deleted me on myspace.. after i sent her a long ass mean message. lol o fuckin well sleezy nitecreeper. Im bout to go to her house one day lol shes not gonna know im comming. lol And its gonna be the worse day of her life. And the worst part about it is.. everyone in the fam is gonna know shes a hoe cuz after i do what i do their gonna ask me why. And of course im gonna tell them. =) Sneakyy asss.. Its over for her life. To make everyones life easier... I blocked her from his myspace =] ha ha ha.

Wanna Minaj?

Um.. why does every1 think their a Minaj? Or .. better yet a lewinski. Lol... none of you are either! Nevertheless.. none of you even look like her. For example hmm.. lemme see, what is a shonda lewinski??? Umm no. I can see if your name was nicole.. or nicky. or if your a boy; nick. Then it wouldnt be too bad to swaggajack. Wait.. not even. And...this Barbie thing? Im not even gonna say anything cuz i think im one myself! hehehehe =D But yes no need for all the dickridin on the minaj/lewinski. Make your own shit hoes slores buckets jumps dicklovins

HELLO EVERYONE!!!

hi!! im mclovin!! i have to work today i honestly dont wanna go 8-0 but.. its payday baby halla. hmm im veryy happy with life n shit! everything is going good. i love the fact that i keep playin whats his face. ha ha ha. sorry your time has ran out my friend. lol. "hello" "yo wat up" "nothin?!" "where u at?" "home" "miss me?" "no" "what? why not" "why should i?" "ok then.. byebye" "HAHAHA"-(CLICK) hahha mclovin is da best =] . im pretty sure you can find another BITCH. anyways yes man i cant go to tubman today. . . . bummer... and i know i wouldve seen sexy ball playing man. o how i want that sexy ball playing man. 8) . lets see if i have enuff balls to halla @ a playa. i get off at 6 tomorrow. yes buddy. where the party at?!!?! i wanna shake sum ass. but im jus sitting here listenin to one night only - day 26. nice song.. nice song.. i hate taking the bus.. well not really i jus hate walkin to the bus. i hate walkin alone period, one. i hope i see sum doddies in da mall today. if puff n stuff is cashin checks ima cop sum new shit :) shoppin makes me happy. so does alotta other things. Now im listenin to wetter- by sammie. I love that song.. and the regular version.. and the jae millz version. lol. ILL BE YO DADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. wtf. im too happy for my own good i need to take a chill pill. you done felt gooddd.. ima make u feel betterrr... u done been wet.. ima make u get wetterrr... =D niceness. too bad im not having sex til... 2010. lol ; sike. i need to look for a photo id. because.. i need it basically. i love u all! but hate you all as a whole!! l.o.l. this blog is mad random n pointless. but then again.. im mclovin &&;; ARE Y0U MAD?!? idc wat ur answer is cuz to me ur mad:)
h4ff4 @ m3

FUCK U ALL

IM TIRED OF PEOPLE TELLING ME WHAT TO DO LIKE IM GOING TO LISTEN. **fUCK U ALLL** DO NOT TELL ME WHO IM ALLOWED TO TALK TO AND WHO IM NOT ALLOWED TO TALK TO. THAT WILL ONLY MAKE ME WANT TO TALK TO WHOEVER EVEN MORE. DOES ANYONE UNDERSTAND I DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANYTHING?! THESE ARE MY DECISIONS AND MY MISTAKES. I WONT BLAME ANY OF YOU EXCEPT ME WHEN SHIT HITS THE FAN. I HAVE 7 MONTHS BEF0RE IM LEGAL. IF SHIT CONTINUES IM OUT THIS FUCKN HOUSE. MY GRANDMA STRESSES ME SO FUCKN MUCH SHES SUCH A FUCKN NUISANCE. DONT FUCKIN TELL ME IM NOT TALKIN TO A CERTAIN PERSON NO MORE. THERE IS A WAY AROUND EVERYTHING. I WILL DO WHAT I WANT **fUCK U ALL** LITERALLY. EVEN ALL MY FAM. I REALLY DONT GIVE 2 SHITS ABOUT SHIT! **fUCK U ALL** IM SO HEARTLESS ITS CRAZY. AND AN EXTRA FUCK TO THE PEOPLE WHO WANT ME TO DO SHIT FOR THEM BUT WEN THE SITUATION GET BIG DEY WANNA TURN PUSSY ABOUT IT && ACT LIKE SHITS GOOD **fUCK U ALL** EVEN THO IM SAYIN **fuCK U ALL** I STILL LOVE U ALL. LOL. I JUS CANT TAKE THE JUDGEMENT. EVERYONE IS ACTING LIKE I FUCKED 200 NIGGAS. NO ITS JUST 1. COMPARE TO THE REST OF THE BITCHES IN POUGHKEEPSIE. YEA.. THATS WHAT I THOUGHT. I CAN SEE IF I HAD A DIFFERENT NIGGA AROUND EVERY WEEK. NOO!! ITS JUST ONE!!! AND THE SAD PART ABOUT IT IS THIS IS NOTHIN NEW... THIS AINT THE ONLY **BOY** I HAD IN MY LIFE. YA MAD LATE GET WIT DA PROGRAM. FUCK U ALLL!!!!!! I DONT KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I CAN SAY IT! STOP TELLING ME IM HEADING IN THE WRONG DIRECTION. HOW?!?!?! BECAUSE OF A BOY?!?!?! WTF THATS THE CRAZIEST SHIT I EVER HEARD. **HE** CAN DEFINATELY NOT DETERMINE MY FUTURE!! NIGGAZ IS ACTIN LIKE IM GETTIN MARRIED TO THE BITCH. IM GOING TO BEND OVER SO EVERYONE CAN GET A SPOT TO KISS ON MY ASS. IF ITS REALLY THAT SERIOUS I WILL PACK MY SHIT N BOOK IT 2 1 OF MI NIGGAZ CRIB LOL. AND ITS NOT LIKE IMA BE MAD BUMMY IF I CHOOSE TO BECAUSE WAY MORE THAN HALF DA SHIT IN MY CLOSET I BOUGHT N ALL DAT LOL. DA ONLY THING IMA LOOSE IS MY LAPTOP N PHONE. BUT I CAN EASILY GET A VIRGIN MOBILE... NOT LIKE I DONT HAVE A JOB N SHIT LOL. GOD PLEASE HELP ME. ALL THIS SHIT YA PUTTIN ME THRU OVER A BOY REALLY GOT ME THINKIN OTHER SHIT. I REALLY JUS WANNA SAY **fUCK U ALL** N ACT LIKE A BITCH. BUT SERIOUSLY? LOL IM A HAPPY PERSON WHEN U GUYS TELL ME IM IN THE WRONG I JUS SIT THERE AND THINK OF..............SEX? LOL HAH IM REALLY NOT PAYING ATTENTION NIGGAS IS REALLY WASTIN BREATH WHEN THEY CAN USE IT WEN THEY NEED IT. IM SORRY NIGGAS IS MAD N ALL DAT. YA'LL ALL GET OVER IT. NO IM NOT MAD CUZ YA DONT WANT ME TO BE WIT A CERTAIN NIGGA. HES NOT THE REASON. YA JUS DONT GET THAT..I WILL DO WHAT I WANT CUZ I JUST DONT CARE. LOL. BEAT ME. BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF ME. TAKE EVERYTHING AWAY FROM ME. I WILL JUS RUN AWAY FROM U . LMFAO. I DONT NEED A PHONE HE'LL JUS GRAB MY FOOT THRU DA WINDOW N ILL THINK ITS THE END OF THE WORLD CUZ IM BOUT TO GET KIDNAPPED.. BUT THEN I REALIZE ITS HIM LOL. ANYWAYS. STOP TRYNA BE BIG GUARDIAN N SHIT ITS TOO LATE 4 ALL DAT. WATEVA HAPPENS HAPPENS YA JUS GONNA HAVE TO TAKE IT IN

DONE

SO I CAN OFFICIALLY SAY IM DONE WITH YOU. ALL YOUR BITCHES DO NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ME NO MORE. THEY NO LONGER HAVE TO QUESTION WHERE THE HELL YOUR AT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT BECAUSE YOU CAN NOW CHOOSE TO BE AT EITHER ONE OF THEIR CRIBS. AND I THINK THIS TIME IM HONESTLY CUTTIN U OFF..I DID A GO0ODDD JOB TODAY..AND LAST NIGHT SAYING SO WITHOUT SAYING SO. LOL. ITS ONLY 1OCLOCK I HOPE YOU DONT CALL ME TONIGHT CUZ BEING SO "SPRUNG?" IM GONNA ANSWER AND SAY OK COME ON OVER. NO. IVE BEEN GOOD ALL MY LIFE WITHOUT A NIGGA BY MY SIDE, IT WONT BE HARD ONCE AGAIN. THE BITCHES YOU ARE FUCKIN WITH ARE MAD YOUNG MAD DIRTY MAD DOWN 2 DO DA TEAM. LETS GET SOME COMPETITION AROUND HERE.. WITH THESE HOES YOUR MOST LIKELY GONNA CALL ME BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS BACK LIKE...STOP PLAYIN U KNO WAT IT IS. NO, I DONT WANT TO KNOW. YOU SHOULDVE KNOWN WHAT IT IS WHEN YOU WENT TO GET THE TOP FROM THESE LITTLE BIRDIES. IM BOUT TO DELETE ALL YOUR FRIENDS ON MYSPACE. TAKE ALL THIS SHIT U GOT AT MI CRIB N JUS THROW IT IN THE BAG (A GARBAGE ONE) ... BUT IM KEEPIN THE BBALL SHORTS. AND THE BUGS BUNNY BOXERS BECAUSEE... I LIKE THEM. THANK GOD I AM SUCH A NICE PERSON AND DONT LIKE PUTTIN PEOPLE ON BLAST BECAUSE I KNOW ****SOOO**** MUCH SHIT ABOUT YOU;; AND ABOUT YOUR THINGS. I CAN REALLY JUS LIKE, DAMAGE SHIT. LOL. ENOUGH WITH THE BITCHIN SHIT. IM SAD. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF. IM CRYING. NOT HARD. BUT TEARS ARE FALLING. NO IM NOT WEEPING. ITS JUST WATER COMMING OUT MY EYES. HAVE A GOOD LIFE WITH YOUR LAKE BITCHES (LOL INSIDER). I JUST CANT. LOL. I HOPE YOUR PENIS GROWS A LUMP ONE DAY. DONT GET ME WRONG YOUR A PRETTY NICE GUY.. YOUR JUST A WHORE!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I DONT LIKE SHARING @ ALL. UGHH.. SUCH A PITY. && YOU KNOW... YOU "KNOW" THAT WHEN IT COMES TO MR NASTY TIME THEY "DEFINATELY" DONT HAVE SHIT ON ME.... BESIDES THEM LICKIN YOUR NUTTSACK && SHIT LIKE DAT. BUT ITS OKAY. ILL BE GOOD. I DONT NEED YOUR DICK NEMORE. AND THE HEAD... NOT TOO WORRIED BOUT THAT CUZ I CAN EASILY GET IT FROM OTHER PEOPLE LOL. OFFERINGGGSS LMAO0O! THE SAD PART IS AFTER ALL THIS SHIT IM SAYING IM PROLLY GONNA STILL FUCK WIT U!!!!!! WTF. IM JUST A DUMB HOLE OF AN ASS. BUT THEY SAY LET SOMETHIN GO IF IT COMES BACK.. ITS YOURS. I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW BUT.. YEA. I WILLL BE FINE SO0ONN!! A LITTLE HEARTBREAK AINT NEVER HURT NOBODY...physically lol.
BUTTT.. I KNO ILL BE "FINE" GOT THE FATTEST BOX WHITE T'S NO BRA (LOL SORRY THAT IM TALKING SO MUCH ABOUT MY SHIT, IM GASSED A LITTLE) EAT MY CORNHOLE!! OKAY WELL NOW IM JUST BEING RANDOM. BUT YES IM JUST GONNA PLAY THIS ONE OUT && SEE WHAT HAPPENS. WHO KNOWS MAYBE YOU'LL ACTUALLY CALM DOWN && SETTLE WITH ONE OF YOUR BOOTHANGS. GOSH MAN. THIS REALLY SUCKS. FUCK ME IN THE ASS EVERYONE PLEASE. BUT I JUST DONT KNOW. I CAN GO TO A FRIEND AND THEY'LL SAY "HEY JUS LEAVE HIM ALONE THEN ITS NOTHIN" BITCHES. WHAT ARE YOU SAYING?! LOL. ITS WAY MORE TOO IT THEN YOU ACTUALLY SEE.. OR KNOW.. OR WONDER... OR PONDER UPON. NEWAYS. STROKE MA WANG




BUT ADIOS ME && MY PUSSY IS OUTTA HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (HOPEFULLY) lol

I.....

I........
will be something in life.
I........
am the reason why your nights are so lonely.
I.......
get my own money and buy the shit you window shop for.
I.......
dont give a fuck if your dead or alive.
I.......
can rap.
I.......
live a happy life and tends to keep positive things around.
I.......
see it, get it, its mine, wave goodbye.
I.......
am your competition.
I.......
am what you want your reflection to be.
I.......
can make you mad without saying a word..jus ma swag das ma word.
I.......
am gassed because I think the line I wrote above this one is jus too hard lol.
I......
am most likely gonna be your childs nurse and I hope they dont grow lumps on their lips because I will laugh.
I......
am the one you depise; do you even know my name?
I.......
dont care about what you have to say
I......
have one question


ARE YOU MAD?!

Goin in on my........ sister. Lmao

So.. Im sitting here chillen noticing how much of a slut my 14 year old sister is. She loves the attention of PENIS. My "nigga" (male) is sleeping in the corner with the big ass bed of mine. and she chooses to lay right.... next... very.... close.. to... him. Yes slut. And its pretty obvious the nigga confronted me saying I think your sister wants to fuck me. As soon as this nigga leaves I'm gonna spaz on her. Dead ass haha. OMg this is so sad the worst part about it is she does the same shit to her mother!! Like damn ma. HOEEEEEEEEEEEE.
hahahaha omg she is really crazzziii. i just cant ima stop writin for now n finish this up later i jus gotta examine dis nasty bitch!

dumb poughkeepsie girls*

man you guys are slow. do any of you know the real definition of a wifey

lets see what urbandictionary has to say about this "title"

	"WIFEY (why-fee) n - A female entitled to call his phone any time of the day or night, make herself at home at his home, occupy his free time, keep him out of trouble, defend him at all times even when he's not around! (and vice versa), make sure he's happy (because he does the same for her), have all of his attention. TRANSLATION>>> The one that ALL the girls love to HATE!!

For you slow people out there heres a simple explanation:

	A REAL Lady, Not your only but your favourite, different from them hood rat chicks. Sexy in everyway possible, when she smiles it's sexy, even when she's mad at you it's sexy.

Hints that signals your **NOT** wifey

- he doesnt answer your calls
- when you ask him why not he says he left his charger somewhere, or his phone died
- its 2 in the morning. . . and you dont know where he is
- the only people you know in his family is, him. (lmao)
- his family doesnt know about you. smh..
- you dont know where he lives lol
- you only hear from him when its 5 in the morning
- you fuck eachother then he leaves
- you cant write a book bout what he likes what he doesnt like what ticks him off what makes him happy his flaws n all.
- u only get blocked calls
- in his phone he has u stored under another name so its not "known" you two talk (lmao)
- your myspace is dedicated towards him but on his the only things including you on his page is his, comments, which are only because of, you. lol
- your number isnt in at least one of his friends phones
- he never proved that he "loves you"
- he doesnt know your number by heart
- no songs remind him of you, in a good way.. not no put it in your mouth. or look back at me. or bitches aint shit but hoes and tricks. no.. not a good sign lmao.
- he puts on a front about his other slores
- you only see him every other week
- you cant make him happy not even with pussy lol
- he doesnt like your cooking
- none of his shit is at your house
- you cant figure out what hes doing right now.. not even idea
- out in public you guys dont say shit to eachother except hello or something gay.
- he says he loves you..............after you got done doing something for him

signs you are wifey

- he answers the calls and if he doesnt he calls right back
- when you ask him why he didnt answer the first time he keeps saying sorry sorry
- you usually dont have to call him first because.. hes the one calling you.
- you know who the "wierd" names in his phone are
- someone in the family knows who you are
- hes not afraid to say he loves you not even in front of his friends
- you know things about him that wouldnt be to cool to be out in the open.
- you see him everyday
- the reason why the "slore" "wannab wife" didnt get her called answered was because he told you to press ignore when she called.
- you know about his past bitches
- even if you arent his girl he tells you bout his current bitches.

+ way more that i dont feel like typing


little poughkeepsie birdies are real blind ::::::

good pussy syndrome

yes. i have it.

lmfao